i dont know why i like wasting time so much. all i do all day is, hog on the laptop. reblog pictures on tumblr, tweet! watch youtube, eat, sleep. that’s all i ever do. im wasting so much valuable study time. it sickens me, its pulling me down. i dont know what to do anymore. i lack motivation, confidence and anything positive to convince myself “i can do this!” i really need help! i dont wanna be stuck in brunei one day and send my friends one by one to go off to UK/overseas. im not even as good as people think i am anymore. people still keep saying im pandai but truthfully i dont see it that way anymore :-( it’s sad really, my parents have given me more than what i need, but im not doing a great good convincing them that i deserve every bit of penny/gifts they’ve given me. dorang nda pulang bekira, but i know in their hearts  they want me to succeed in every possible way, they dont want me be left out. so, im still trying to convince myself that studying is one way to make it through in life, get a good job, be happy. yes, im still trying to convince myself.. but so far, no luck. im still hogging on the laptop as always, sigh. you know how bad i am at math? i cant even do partial fraction! it’s crazy~